I have read the most amazing novel... Tender Graces by Kathryn Magendie. I literally haven't stopped thinking about it...it is the kaleidoscope I view all that has happened these last few days. It is through this lens I view my mothering and certainly many of my choices.
When I think of the word grace...I think of forgiveness although I know it has many different meanings and it is a word of significance for Christians in particular.
I struggle with accepting grace and giving grace...but I am ashamed to say that I struggle with forgiving others. My husband on the other hand is a very forgiving person who has shown me incredible grace as well as to others...He just does!
I on the other hand ( y'know the one you want to cut off...) revisit the trauma and ruminate until it's all fresh and new! Why?
I honestly don't know...I do the very thing I do not want to do.
I have been hurt in my life but no more than I have hurt others I am sure...
Why do I keep this record of wrong doings...when it is not what I want to do!
I do know that this flaw in my nature has kept me close to God...I mean I don't think he would like someone like me to roam too far away!
I loved this book...it has a few broken and interesting characters ...like me!
How about you? Is it easier to receive grace or to give it?