Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Listening to the Right Voice

This morning as I climbed the steps, with my hot coffee in hand to go to my office-with-the-perfect view...I thought about what I would blog about. As I sat down... I took one look outdoors and I knew.  I would have included a picture of my office's perfect-view however the office has less than perfect Internet. Today that Internet seems to be the equivalent of dial up and since I have a date with a track to run...I am not going to hang around waiting for this picture to upload. So, that is my blog post. My beautiful view, timing and disappointments...and trust.

My view is of beautiful farm land, rolling hills, barns with tin roofs that mirror the sun on sunny days. The tree tops are filled with birds today, mostly cardinals.I also have a clear view of our bird feeder which the squirrels attack daily. This amuses me to no end...as we have two large Black Walnut trees in the yard and the fattest Squirrels in all of Virginia but they want the birdseed. I have a beautiful view but some days I look outside and I am profoundly sad about what I don't see...I miss my Florida. I am still mourning a life that is not to be.

My timing is off these days. I am running and it was much easier in my twenties...than in my fifties.I  can't seem to find my pace. I had a break through recently and I shared it with my husband telling him how I have found the secret to running. "Really what?" he said. I replied in all seriousness my "You don't stop!" He laughed. As I run, my whole body screams stop doing this. "Stop running!" yells my right hip. My lungs cry out "You are going to die, if you don't slow down!" My heart pounds out "Quit..now. Quit...now!" But...the secret is to keep running! Stay the course.

I was having trouble trusting my inner voice, let alone the many other outside voices. I began to feel a disappointment with myself and others, and my frustration with what I couldn't do, couldn't control, couldn't seem to bear was growing . It was then the time for me to sit, stop looking outside and close my eyes and listen to the only voice that truly matters to me. I need to listen to my creator's voice...God's.

Then and only then can I see His beautiful creation, the joy in my situation, know that I can do all things with Him...and trust that His Grace is sufficient.   Have a beautiful day! I am off for a run!

Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

3 comments:

RBK's Realm said...

What a beautiful piece of writing! So glad to see you are back on "track". Keep writing and one day, VA will grow on you and then you will start hankering for it when you go back to Florida. I know it as I have been there - am still there where your heart wants you to be in both places...

Ronda's Rants said...

Thank you. We must have tea you and me in DC. :)

Rob Baer said...

Amen.